things i find uncomfortable
- attending an in-person event (like a hackathon or a workshop)
- going to a networking event and actually talking to the people
- making new friends and chatting on discord (yes, even online)
- meeting up with old friends and colleagues for coffee
- responding to concerns and emails from strangers
- talking about my life, small talks
- being silent around close friends, afraid they'll find me boring or stuckup
- posting my creative projects publicly on my socials
- submitting my works when i think they're mediocre
- applying for jobs and the idea of interviews
- not belittling my gameplay when i'm live streaming (aka saying i suck)
- being confident in my own skills, my works, my body
- being followed by relatively skilled or bigger content creators on social media (thinking i don't deserve it)
- selling and promoting my work online, being too cringe
- applying for city community projects
- applying for grants, sponsorships, anything related to money
- talking about money with other people
- people supporting me financially (i never feel like i deserve it)
- not belittling my situation whenever i talk about finances (calling myself broke)
- starting a new project, fearing i'm not devoted completely and would eventually fail/stop
- talking in game, afraid that strangers would talk shit