Happy Sunday!

(Update: thankfully I'm in a motel right now so we got wi-fi for a successful upload)

I'm writing this post in advance as there's a possibility I'll be in the middle of nowhere by Sunday.

We'll be heading in the driveway on the way to US by 2am this Saturday for my mom's birthday. It's gonna be a long 24-hour drive with occasional food and bathroom stops (of course). I have no idea what we're going to do for the whole week there. All I know is we're visiting my uncle along with some relatives from my home country who decided to join us in our trip. I am, however, excited to spend a whole day in Kinokuniya (something that doesn't exist in my province, shame).

Highlights

• I streamed once last Monday playing pubs with katara, ranked with Flashy and Shelly, and got a few nice highlights. I spent an hour and a half in the firing range before streaming and surprisingly enjoyed aim training... that was something new. It was fun and almost relaxing. I might continue doing so when I start streaming again after we get back.
• I was successful in starting to wake up at 5:30am. I initially thought this would help me have more time to work on my shit, but the three days that I did this I still have accomplished absolutely nothing. It's a shame really, that despite giving myself more time of the day, that doesn't guarantee I'll achieve my ideal schedule. (he told me "it's not about the quality, it's about the quantity" lol)
• I once again started coding and revamping my website. I truly prefer iframes despite its infamous, non-recommended status in the web community. I wanted to make one but couldn't figure out a way to make it mobile-friendly so I couldn't continue with it, but I recently found this amazing website which showed me it is possible! Thank you for the inspiration!
• I've been reading more Substack essays lately which in turn is making me crave writing even more. I have a lot of drafts, posted some more blogs, and I'm even planning on starting my own newsletter over there. I'll have to decide what I want to focus on before I dive into it(I have so many ideas).
• Another successful week of daily reels, what else is there to say?
• I wrote a new poem that came to me randomly while I was washing dishes.
• I walked on the treadmill whenever I could. I didn't do it everyday, but that's okay. I'm trying to shift it to walking outside in the morning instead since the weather is getting warmer and nicer, so I can inhale the sun's breath.
• I went out with my best friend to get brunch, catch up on life, and get some groceries. I ended up impulse buying some notebooks and stickers despite my wallet being empty lol.
• I've been interested in starting a few hobbies lately: mostly journaling and just recently, painting on a canvas.
• Nervously submitted an application to the Peach Pit Grant! Crossing my fingers, I'd love to bring my project to life with it.

Recent discoveries

• I adored this wonderful essay with a poetic touch on Substack.
• I found a new favorite music artist. Ethel Cain's music feels so soft, cathartic, and ephemeral. I'm obsessed with the sound and melody.

Housekeeping

Over the weekend I’ve been outside on a road trip, which honestly kept me from rage blogging and posting more exhausting rants. Something has been eating me up but despite it consuming my brain, my current situation hinders me from fully writing it and I think that’s a good thing. I’m debating whether or not I’ll actually post it, but there’s a similar feeling of relief of just letting it go as time pass by. We’ll see how my emotional ass feels about it after we reach our destination and I’ve had some time to breathe.