Sunday sessions #8
Happy Sunday.
Highlights of the week
- streamed for 4 days - I'm pretty satisfied with it despite the goal being five days straight (I took a break mid-week after entering another unprompted existential crisis, but thankfully it didn't last for long and I rose up the next day). Four days is still a good job.
- Played some Apex rank with friends - We played for about two days: started at rookie and ended up bronze just this Friday. My competitive nature is oozing and I can't stop it, I really wanna take it seriously (but after what happened today, these feelings might change)
- I applied to a job and got a phone interview - the very next day lol. It was actually really funny because they called me in the morning while I was half-asleep, so my answers to some questions were pretty goofy. (One example would be when they ask how my old work environment was like and I replied with "it was chill" LMFAO)
- I went to the in-person interview - just this Saturday. Admittedly the experience was much better lol.
- Another week of daily reels - I have a few late days where I forgot to edit and upload the night of, but that's okay because I still completed the whole week. Consistency is all that matters.
- Another week of walking on the treadmill - I missed a few days, but once again, it's not a big deal as it's becoming second nature every morning and I found myself just doing it normally out of habit.
- I got some more interesting ideas.. - my thoughts dump page continues to be filled, and the list of new projects never end.
- I have more blog drafts in my head - I'm glad the ideas are there but the execution is getting harder each week.. I'll try to make time for it in the days to come, making sure I have free hours to just write and put my thoughts out there. This is my free therapy session after all.
- I found more inspirations - namely the Lacey games series and some random streamers I click on that inspire me to keep streaming and get better at gaming.
It doesn't seem like I did a lot and yet my energy is completely drained for the week. I guess streaming just naturally takes a lot from me mentally and physically despite starting later in the afternoon (around 4PM). It's also been negatively impacting my sleep schedule as I slowly get addicted to gaming once again and ending stream later than intended. It's such a challenge to follow a schedule, no matter how I lenient it is. But after today's heated talking session with my mother, I'm definitely gonna make big changes to my schedule. I'll be stricter (despite the proven fact that I can't go through it) and harsher on myself again.
Future notes
Next week is the last week before we leave for the US for a little birthday vacation (a whole week and a half). Here are some of the changes I know for sure will happen:
- I'm lessening my Twitter usage again. The feed has been getting worse, the users and random communities are just pure hate mobs intruding in other people's businesses and taking strangers' issues too personally. It's not that deep guys. I'll be strictly looking only at the following tab from now on to keep track of my mutuals, no more exceptions.
- I'm going to start getting up early and push myself more outside of my comfort zone. I often struggle to wake up because of the eepy, but this time I'll be stricter with my time.
- I'm going to start on big projects, whether I like it or not. Fuck the body resistance, I will be forcing myself to do it. Endure the pain of discipline or suffer the pain of regret.
I'm looking for ways to be more accountable with my actions and day-to-day activities. I was thinking maybe streaming my shit daily could help me with that, so we'll test it out and see how it goes.
As for what project to focus on, I trust that I will figure it out as I go.
I don't know what the future holds, but I hope it's a good one.