Sunday sessions #21
Happy Sunday!
Can you even believe it? I'm finally thinking about my business. For the past few weeks I've slowly been cooking up solid ideas for merch. My biggest problem has always been my indecisiveness and fear of committing to one thing in case I change my mind one day and want something else. It happens all the time and affects all aspects of my life. From something as big as goals and plans in life to something as small as what to eat and what tasks to do in a day. My mind is changing every second, which constantly keeps me on my toes.
Highlights of the week
- This week was a half full kind of week. I surprisingly drew for four consecutive days (from Monday to Thursday) up until I decided to work on other parts of my business and also got my period. It took a whole day to brainstorm the new username/alias I wanted to go by, and a whole weekend to decide which one I resonated with the most.
- I finished 3 illustrations of my OC couple that I can use as a print or merch and I'm so happy with this new art style that I'm cooking. The only problem is my fear of wanting to try something new again which will eventually break my style consistency and maybe even drawing streak, but I will try my best to stay consistent.
- I think I finally decided on my new alias. I made it my goal to commit before the end of the week, and I picked a winner despite not feeling too emotionally invested with it. Maybe it'll grow on me as weeks and months pass by. Hopefully. The only problem is that the correct spelling is taken in other platforms so I'd have to use special characters to spell it more unique... I lowkey hate doing that but I have to make do with what I got.
- Yes, my reels are still going strong despite posting late batches after 2-3 days. All that matters is that I have a video of each day to edit and post.
I'm making very slow progress with my dream shop, but it's progress nonetheless. The dread and overthinking and guilt hasn't stopped though. I promised my parents I would get a job this year and it's already August and I'm still unemployed. The guilt of being selfish eats me up everyday, and the doubts will continue until I have something to show for it. I will continue walking this path until I'm unable to.
See you next Sunday.