I joined my first ever community event! (WeblogPoMo 2024)
I joined my first community blogging event (yippee!)
I finally got an excuse to blog daily, despite that being against one of my blogging principles (I wanted to write and publish whenever I want and not feel like I’m forcing myself to do it). But I have my reasons. I found this the perfect opportunity to be more accountable with my goals, making sure I work on my projects every day and logging the process. So the topic will be project updates! (Like Sunday sessions, but daily, and maybe a hint of drunken thoughts and random musings)
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As I fill out the questionnaires in the participants form, one particular question kept me staring at the wall contemplating for what felt like an hour (it was 15 minutes).
”Would you like to be listed as a participant?”
I hesitated.
The idea that my blog exists in a public directory feels scary. At the moment I’m only listed in bearblog’s discovery feed (I feel like even that is too much, but since I was using the platform I wanted to at least be accessible to my neighbours).
I don’t think I’m ready to reach out farther in the community just yet. Perhaps it’s my social anxiety talking, and I know I’ll never be ready for anything, but this blog is too sacred and intimate for me that I just can’t find myself personally sharing it with everyone else (just yet). I’m not completely against the idea of people finding my blog (being mentioned in other blogs and posts is such an honor I cry every fucking time), it’s more so the fact that I’d hate to feel like I’m promoting my shit.
The only purpose of this blog is, and always will be, to selfishly express my unfiltered thoughts and raw, honest feelings. And for now I’ve decided that I’m going to keep it that way.
Perhaps somewhere down the line, I’ll find the courage to ”spread my wings” or some shit. Or maybe just completely make a new blog that’s less exhaustingly personal. Either way, this blog will continue to exist in this small bubble, so if you somehow find your way into this blog, it may as well have found you too.