i finally did it...
I published a functioning website on Neocities today and I've never been so proud of myself for once. This quarter was shit compared to the last one, but at least there's one thing I've done that's worth celebrating before the "second year" ends. It's in between barebones and complete - a fully functioning personal site with the right amount of info, but enough for me to be satisfied. I want to add more pages, more layers, more visuals. I want to make it prettier, more coherent, more personal that screams me. It'll be a constant work-in-progress passion project, my digital home and intimate corner of the internet.
I won't be plugging the link here. I want to keep my promise; one of the most important reasons for this space's existence. I will continue to keep this blog isolated from my public online life, away from the commodified personas I've created. Ever since I stepped foot on the internet, I've garnered dozens of made-up names and personas to protect my personal identity, and so far this is the closest I've ever gotten to being "myself." Even though I'm still not using my real name, I feel as if I am still talking as her, with no filter, just pure raw thoughts and emotions. That's why I'll never create that outside connection.
The only outside connection I'll ever share are people I admire, strangers that inspire me, my friends and mutuals, and everyone else in my life. I've recently been trying to get over my social fear online and reaching out semi-anonymously to my favorite inspirations. One of them being Mei, whose website heavily inspired me to create my own. She's an amazing creator, artist, and webmaster and I will never tire of admiring her! I love leaving anonymous comments and appreciation posts as a stranger they'll never get to meet.
I'd love to reach out to more people, and hopefully I can be well acquainted with them in the future (or even become mutuals! oh how lovely that would be..)