HOLYSHIT????
I'm sorry for the random curse word (and the incoming incoherent screaming/fangirling) but HOLY F U C K I N G SHIT.
I've been inactive on blogging and website making since I started focusing on drawing and streaming lately (working on personal projects that can get me out of unemployment instead of self indulgent hobbies). I haven't been reading my daily RSS feed in a month (I must admit I tend to forget things once they're out of sight and mind...) and just not as caught up with the indie web as much lately. But today after posting a Sunday session I decided to check my adjacent tabs randomly (which is my Neocities website) and TELL ME WHY I SAW A COMMENT ON MY GUESTBOOK FROM A NAME I RECOGNIZE AND ADMIRE HELLO????? AM I HALLUCINATING OR IS THIS THE PERSON I IDOLIZE CUZ IF IT IS WHAT THE FUCK.
My heart stopped the moment I saw it and felt every emotion all at once rush through my veins ohmygod (is this what they call anxiety??? but I'm happy BUT embarrassed!!!! i am OVERJOYED I MIGHT CRY (no this isn't an exaggeration bc i almost did)). It was posted a month ago!!!! (I am so sorry for seeing it so late???)
Like there's no way, I don't want to believe it because I'm such a big obsessed fan.. there's no way my first guestbook visitor is someone I've been reading religiously and admiring in the shadows pls like excuse me how did u get here i love u wtf ?????
(Okay I need to calm down and stop fangirling because girl you're scaring people away LMAO.. wouldn't it be so funny if it wasn't even the right person I had in mind imma just dig my grave in advance tbh)
I just kind of had to let these feelings out, sorry sorry.
Back to regular scheduling (and talking) lol